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Friday, September 10, 2004

here to update.
yesterday.towned with jaima.took neos.haha.been a long time since we last met up.let alone talked.wanted to watch cinderella story.and apparently,it was sold out at cine and ps.and then our deariee sam,being so paranoid thinks we are bluffing her.lols.so me and jai rushed back to ps trying to get the tix lars,but sold out so bought garfield.haha.then sam and alethea came and meet us.we walked arnd and sam decided she was hungry so went to food court.we gossiped alot there.then watched the movie.i swear its nice!the dog's cute.(: was laughing away.haha.yeapp.
today went do project at laoting's house.was bored.cux i wasn't in the mood and char suaned me like hell.and nvrm.they still tag nonsense.wtf mann.wadeva.now i'm gonna blog abt sentimental(?) stuffs.so if yoo dun wanna read,then BYEE.
was looking at all my letters last night.its been a long time since i last received a letter.haha.so was reading and i realized that how fast things have changed in not even a year,look at the past,it was so happy go lucky.there weren't any major burst up or wad.friendships were mantained very well.but look at now.wad the hell is happening?i just feel there's so much regrets,things unsettled,things undone.now life's totally sucks.my past friendships and now.they are different.many things have happened.things now ain't wad they used to be.now,everyone's drifting.some even gone forever.won't life be better if we dun have to always live in teh past?won't it be better if we won't have any regrets?won't it be better if we didn't keep asking ourselves "wad if..."?misunderstandings are everywhere.and now,no one are as close anymore.why does time change things so fast?one minute everyone are so good friends,the next,not even talking.why can't we be more truthful?towards ourselves and towards friendships?why must we always say one thing but mean another?why is there a problem with saying the truth?why can't we be more forgiving or tolerant?those firndships ain't any hi byee ones.they mean alot to me.but look at wad happened now?just a sudden bang and everything changes for the worst.i am at fault i know because i can't seem to tolerate.i seemed to get so irritated.i just dun understand why there's a problem with communicating.with telling each other wad yoo all truly wants instead of just saying all the crap and go and do another.i feel so stoopid sometimes.but they have already happened.and i can't do anything.all i wanted was so just mantain a close friendship.but i guess it will never happened.i'm feeling so nostalgic.gawdd.i guess those are just memories now?because no matter how hard we try,we can't change fate.things will just never be the same again.there's no point in feeling nostalgic too.no point getting the hopes high.
to yoo*:i dun wanna write yoor name here cux i still value our friendship.but i just wanna tell yoo another thing which i forget to mention.its seems that i feel like a fool listening to yoo?cux yoo keep telling me abt breaking friendship and all but the next day,its like nartin abt the breaking friendship,and yoo are talking to that friend as if nartin's happened and that yoo are all so very good friends whu have made up.i know as a friend,i ought to listen.but dun yoo think these had been going on for so long?yoo KEEP telling me things but mean another.if yoo want then just say.if not then just say goodbye.wads the problem with that?and yoo gotta admit yoo were the one whu started it.yoo were the one whu blew things up til they were so serious.i am not saying its all yoor fault or that i have no fault.because i have my faults too.if yoo are not happy with me,yoo can say it out.i dun mind.but i just feel that yoo are beating abt the bush.if yoo care so much for her then say.i read all yoor past letters and just realized something.wadeva.i dunnoe wad to do or say now.cux yoo like to keep repeating something over and over again and that really irks me like hell.sorry for not being a good friend.but i guess things will never be the same for us now.but anyhow,thanks for being there at times.once again.sorry.
nostalgic______;